Day Three

Once again I want to forewarn you that the typos in my posts are when I use my cell phone to do a post. I have the Driod, it rocks but it's hard to get used to using a completely touch screen system. We will give it a name, how's...Droid. When I make a post from my cell I will refer to it as Droid.

As I was saying about the gym thing. I want to find the best deal and I think I found it, maybe. My health insurance is through Blue Cross Blue Shield and they offer a membership for $29 a month, no contract, its universal to several gyms in my area. Only issue is is that it is not for a gym that I want to go to. Believe it or not, I have social anxiety espescially when men are involved. You know ladies that most of us don't like exercising in front of men because we know all they think about is sex. Imagine my fat butt a wigglin' jiggling about on an eliptical machine, sweating and puffing after two minutes of a pumpin away, so out of breath that I have to get off then end up tripping because I have sea legs then realizing that I'm being judged. I don't want to have to worry about being judged and have not been to a gym since Naturally Women went out of business. The only womens only facility is Curves and I don't feel like that would be enough for me, though it would be some kind of activity. Big turn off for curves is that they have very limited hours. There is a 24 hour Fitness down the road but those are usually unstaffed and that makes me feel weird and vunerable. Am I just making excuses like a fat person usually would or do I have valid issues? If I'm going to be spending my money on a gym membership I want to be able to use it, on my terms. I better get my homework done, talk to you in the morning.....

P.S. Usually when I post from Droid, I'm sitting on the toilet at work (bet you wanted that visual, I never said I was using it), it's usually the only place I have a few minutes to myself to be able to give 2heffersicecream my undivided attention.

I've decided, I'm joining a gym. But which one? We had some unexpected bills so I want to fond the best deal. I will ponder this and get back to you.

Had left over pizza and a coke for lunch. Oh and a low fat raspberry muffin from Starbucks. I'm feeling icky - I wonder why...

I had plenty of time to eat cereal. I'm a true fat girl. Yuck.

Then for breakfast I juiced 2 apples, a pear and a xarrot, it was delish. But stopped at jack in the box for 2 breakfast jacks. Ugh! I HAVE to stop doing that.

I'm a Cheater, I'm a Cheater, I'm a cheater. I made homemade pizza for dibner, could've ate better but it was so good.

I do have to give myself kudos b/c I have been walking so much at work I'm sweating. Gross.

Doing this via text so forgive spelling errors, stupid T9, for lunch, a slimfast meal bar, I know high in fat but its fast and I have lots to do at work.

So day 2 and I blew it, with breakfadt. I had half a steak, cheese, egg and potatoe burrito from los betos. It was so good.

End of Day One

Today didn't go so bad, I don't think. Except for the fact that I tried to make a couple of posts with my cell phone via text message and it came through as a bunch of mumbo jumbo. Oh well, I'll work on that.

I had those tostadas for lunch then my man got up and made us some juice, mine was two smal gala apples and a carrot(I don't like the taste of carrot juice but I know they are good for you) then for dinner I had a foot long sub from subway, ham. I know the whole foot long but Janaya is right, it's better then McDonalds and a step towards the goal of eating better. I just need to drink more water, I love water and all I tend to drink is water but today I just didn't drink much, I go in spurts. Good night all.

I forgot to mention my starting weight as of today is 302.

2HeffersIceCream?

It all started last night, my best friend was over and I was online looking at random things when I said "let's start a business so I can stay home with my child, an ice cream truck." My friend then replied "Two Heffers Ice Cream" and we both laughed. That's the reality of my life, I'm fat, she's fat. It hit me, yes I have been trying to lose weight, or have I just been telling people that I'm trying and secretly not (kind of like those vegetarians that say they are in public but in real life, really are not(I know a few)). I am admitting to myself now that I am one of those people who have been telling people that I'm trying when I'm really not. This is me in all my venerability admitting that I am fat and this is my blog to tell my story and share with you my journey to weight loss. I don't want to hide anything, this is going to be brutal. So far this morning I have eaten a bowl of multi grain Cheerios (with skim milk of course) and some water. Tune in to see how the rest of my day goes.......

P.S. I know I spelled Heffers wrong but that's what makes it my own. :)